𝘉𝘺 𝘒𝘶𝘺𝘢 𝘋𝘢𝘯
My Trigeminal Neuralgia (TN) is back. For those who may not know, TN is a long-term pain disorder that affects the trigeminal nerve — the one responsible for facial sensation such as talking, biting and chewing. It’s a form of neuropathic pain that many call the suicide disease because of its unbearable intensity. Sadly, there’s still no permanent cure — only pain management.
Four years and three months ago, I underwent a procedure called Radio Frequency Rhizotomy (RFR). It cost me over ₱200,000 — a huge amount, but I was desperate for relief. My doctor warned me back then: “It will likely recur after two years.”
By God’s grace, mine lasted four years.
About a week ago, the pain came back. When it did, it felt as if the sky fell on me. I found myself asking, why again, Lord? I’ve already gone through so much. My mother recently passed away after battling multiple cancers — another journey that drained me emotionally and financially. I haven’t fully recovered from stroke and now, this.
I told myself; I can’t go through another expensive procedure again.
I realized, when medicine reaches its limits, faith begins its work.
God remains the ultimate healer — not only of physical pain, but also of the emotional and spiritual wounds that no doctor can touch. His healing may not always come in the form we expect, but it always comes with purpose. Sometimes, He doesn’t remove the pain immediately, but instead fills us with the strength, peace, and endurance to carry it.
Maybe God allows pain not to punish, but to draw us closer to Him — to remind us that in our weakness, His power is made perfect. I may not understand everything right now, but I choose to believe that my suffering is not meaningless. He can bring purpose even to this pain and restore what has been broken — in His way, in His time.
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